Just as the watermark had dissolved off the page of indictment we noticed that there would be no turning back from the haste and speed that had defined our youth. Before we were allowed to reclaim the safety of our modern dystopia we slipped a toe into the warmth of that splendid and sordid youth. There were nights where the alcohol and nicotine had risen so high that we were unable to escape their grasps and struggled against the tides of loose tongues. We had said things that we could never take back, and would never want to, because they had been the defining moments of our childhood.
I had only to look into that mirror as the water dripped off my freshly shaved visage to realize that those dreams and promises of friendship would take me the rest of my life to uphold. As the drips hit the surface and coalesced into little spiral shapes I wondered if I would be sucked down into those black holes of oblivion when the end finally took hold. A sense of purpose and duty made dripping noises that pulsed up and down in the plugged sink.
We had finally done it. We had erased the past and created the future. It was not what any of us had wanted, but it was what we all needed. A sense of shrewd perspective to shake us out of malaise and build us into what we had hated and despised. But there was hope. Hope for another day. When we would be allowed to shade in that unsung and unrequited pleasure of those hedonistic, formative years.
But time and temperance raced back in a flash, making that whooshing sound they use in the movies when they snap back to the extreme close-up of the man looking at himself in the mirror. Staring into the eyes that had once been filled with youthful exuberance, now a shade of hazy gray and blue. Slowly a twinge of sparkle arose from the depths of the blackness, a new and surprising thing. He hesitated to blink because he thought it might vanish. It was so beautiful that he began to tear and weep, but he knew that the weeping was not for himself. It was for the lives he would ruin along the way to making those promises last.
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